One of Those People

Do you know those people with the over active imagination and not always in a good or funny way? I am one of those people! If I get part of a message and told to wait for a few hours or a few days to hear the rest I have already killed the main characters in the story and the rest of the cast is in the hospital on life support. My mind works at 200 miles an hour creating plots before the story begins and completed the whole tale before the storyteller is half way through the account of events. Father up above help me now!!! If you still don't know what I mean, here are a few scenarios.

1. My beloved family member goes out and for some reason I need to call them and the call keeps going to voicemail after 5 or 6 tries. At that moment I begin to contemplate calling all known associates; my heart rate becomes elevated and on the verge of an anxiety attack. I then remember that I can pray and start to ask the Lord for their safe passage and return home. They then call and say, "my cell phone was in my handbag and I was driving or some thing tame and logical like that.

2. A friend says I have something to tell you but I can't talk now.........OMG! At this point I am expecting the second coming of Christ. It is either that or my mind begins to work from the worse case scenario forward to where I logically say to myself, "just wait!".

3. My boss says, "I need to talk to you". I have had 2 minor heart attacks and used the bathroom twice between then and the time of the meeting. I call colleagues to find out if the boss also called them and if they know what it's about. I then begin to review the week and replay conversations with all significant figures at work to pick up on any subtle hints that 'might' have been given. Only to find out 4 hours later that Christmas holiday is on the horizon and I am being asked to chair the planning committee.

4. A guy I don't know is sitting across from me and, initially, I feel he is captivated by my striking looks and voluptuous frame. If his stare goes on for more than 30 mins. and he inappropriately has a smirk in the corner of his lips I begin to ask myself if he is well. Could he be off his medication? I begin to think of ways to call the police and how to not get dragged into the white panel van he might have parked close by.

I am much better these days though. Maturity and an improved self confidence have helped to change my train of thought and I am able to quickly refocus in most instances. It however takes constant work and speaking words of affirmation into myself. My Christian faith has helped to move me from negativity to a place of blessed reassurance that God loves me and His plans for me are always perfect no matter what has happened or will happen. It is all for my good! I have also come to realize that most if not all of us are simply trying to do our best every day and I am not the only one struggling or having to put out extra effort, some just hide that fact better than others. The over confident, arrogant person strutting by often has to do that just to prove to them self that they are worthy to be where they are or where they want to be. The long and short of it is that we are all just trying. My one word to that doubtful person out there, You are enough, you were created by God and He loves you. Trust His will and purpose for Your Life.